My life is torturous & hellish. I think of suicide constantly. My existence passively enables a genocide on the other side of the world, the continued rape of the third world, and there is nothing I can do to meaningfully change it.

This drives me into a depression that makes it hard for me to do things. I'm disappointing my family. I'm letting down my boss and peers. They love me and give me things but I just can't reciprocate.

Any attempt to change things just makes this system that oppresses me stronger. I can't get out. This nation is a prison. This social circle is a prison. I cannot escape my flesh