wwyd theoretically if you moved across the world to marry a girl at 21 but you start losing attraction to her a few months later and realise you only really went through with it all because she was the first female to ever give you the time of day, and now you work a shitty full time job that only pays the bills and want to kill yourself because you do nothing but work and have zero friends in the country and have to watch all your friends back home enjoy their early 20's normally??