>>23946150Delusional as futasuck
>>23947282That was only claude's estimation based on what I told it although I could get a welfare clinic roastie to say the same thing but I won't since I can't risk getting put on heart pills that keep me alive longer
My chest feels tight a lot sometimes a faint flutter, especially when I am doing hundreds of compulsion actions over and over it feels like my blood pressure goes up
>>23947299I am not mentally ill but I am mentally and cognitively deteriorating more rapidly than ever before because now that I can't lift or exercise anymore that takes away the only cope and structure and moving forward and purpose that I had and have been realizing more and more that this is it, rotting alone on a mattress with nothing forever now is driving me fucking hysterical and insane at every moment even though my face is flat on the outside, whats been done to my brain and ears and mind is no going back, cant go on a fucking car ride
>I'm sorry you feel that way>What makes you say that>Not necessarily >That's one way to think about itI CANT FUCKING STAND HEARING THIS SHIT ANYMORE 988 911 AI 4CHAN ITS ALL THE FUCKING SAME LYING FAGGOTS WHO WONT ADMIT HOW BAD IT IS
I have lost every ounce of trust in the system and mental industry after learning how hollow and figuratively and literally fake and gay the narratives and profit and uselessness for someone like me, and even for mildly depressed normalfags
I have been having thoughts of looking up left hand path rituals to summon entities and throw my soul away because the total isolation and loneliness and no one and nothing is making me insane
My obsession for a higher purpose or any purpose which I have lost the ability to have
I am a useless eater
