I want to be loved. I don't have friends, even less a girl, yet I hope one day I can get a girlfriend.

I'm not exactly manly and I want to be protected instead of protecting someone, even though I am a man. This makes it more exciting, though, because girls who would protect me are probably rare, so if I find one she will be really special and "made for me".
I know I'm vulnerable and I don't have too much problems with that, and I'm content with my taste for girls. But I also know I'm pathetic, and this isn't something to be proud of. Yet that's probably why being protected feels so sexually attractive. Sex can be pretty deep, psychologically speaking. At least for me, though I don't know how a socially successful person would feel about that. Damn, I would like to pop some cherries too!