>>24002112I know, but I'm so lost that I don't see any other ray of light except the one found in death. I know there are many beautiful things in the world worth fighting for. Not only that, but I myself had long wanted to build a long chain of friendships and get married at some point. Having a stable future with some financial security and a happy family isn't bad, after all. But the thoughts are still there, and it often takes a lot of effort not to have them. There are many other options I could pursue, but for now I think I'll wait a little longer before reaching the point of no return.
>>24002161I wanted to go to university to secure my financial future, achieve several goals I had set for myself, and simply move forward with what I had planned. I wanted to study criminal law because it offers excellent job prospects, even though practicing it in a country like Mexico may seem risky. Likewise, I stopped considering going to college because a desire that my parents had initially supported could not be fulfilled, in addition to a conversation with a psychiatrist who told me that I did not have a vocation for it. Personally, I thought he was a jerk and an imbecile, but there was some truth in his words. I can change careers and look for something else, but honestly, this was what I aspired to do with my life, and I believed I could do it pretty well. After all, I am a person who loves to read and is not that bad at socializing.
