Let me face it. My life is over right? There's nothing else to look forward to. I've also even cosplayed as a normie by doing the things like have sex and go to parties, which made me realize even more profoundly that I'm a deeply insane person. There's nothing else.
>inb4 muh religion
I come from an Eastern Orthodox background. But abstract beliefs and identities, by the way, are not a guide to actually live reality.