>>24016490>but its working i hope?it really is working out well lately, saying less is crazy effective
>I have the opposite issue where i am trying to open up and restrict myself less ...this is what i used to do and got taken advantage of a lot this way and through all that abuse i leanred that most do not care (some do) so i just dont say much anymore that lets people take advantage but its also kinda backfired because i dont have friends either, but i dont get hurt anymore...
>my life being abused and neglectedsorry to hear about the abuse, thats something im lucky enough to have not experienced
but i was certainly neglected...my own mom left me as a child :(
can only imagine how damaging abuse is on top of neglect :( :(
> I'm unnatural at least once after opening up.is this a typo? ..i think you meant natural because i have such stage fright in the beginning too...bleh i hate it
>looks like the global consciousness update did its thing hahaomg that was a rough couple of weeks fr fr loool
>does that just sorta happen or do you need to do something to achieve something like thatit used to be very natural but then drugs, alcohol, depression, mental abuse, etc took its toll and i lost the connection completely....then after that huge depression period i started praying to the universe
praying unironically reactivated it after a while...think i had been praying for about 6 months and then suddenly the universe answered
and now i can freely commune and connect and sometimes i get visits from god which are a trip and sound super schizo (well i am) but damn its such an unreal experience its hard to not call it anything else
makes me tear up thinking about the times its happened....there was one time i was in full blown panic mode and self hatred mental spiral, and (okay now im really tearing up) he came to me and calmed me down right in the middle of it, and let me know it was going to be okay
