>>24017427really nice to hear, anon, thank you for sharing. i can relate a lot on the points of growing past things you once thought impossible to give up through dependence and surrender to the Lord.
frankly, in my walk with God, i am more like a stubborn ass. even when He commands me to do something for Him, i stay put. He has to always carry me to put me in the place that He wants me, but i intuitively understand that it's for my own good. it's sometimes just funny seeing the coincidental ways in which i am put in the place where he needs me, because i know i would not have listened otherwise. my favourite moments with Him are either in quiet worship to Him, or when i am working on my car and something seems impossible, but i call upon Him, and He suddenly makes it possible. i always look outside of myself first, thinking man will come to help, but it never happens, unless if that man was sent by God, if that makes sense. this is a phenomenon that happens consistently to me.
the reason why i asked anon what he did to warrant God's punishment is this thread a few days back:
https://desuarchive.org/r9k/thread/83917295/#83917295