>>24037846I've been on opiates for the last 11 years because I was rear ended by a retarded broad texting and driving going 70mph while I was stopped at a light. My back is destroyed, I have spinal cord damage, carpal tunnel, nerve damage all over. Entire life turned upside down in an instant. I'm in unlivable pain without opioids, they're the only thing that work. When it first happened I was on oxycodone and completely functional, then the 2016 opioid crackdown happened and I got kicked off cold turkey with zero notice and for no reason. I was in so much pain I just started smoking heroin and then moved on to fent when the h supply dried up here. Then I became horrifically dependent on tranq dope when they started putting the xylazine in fent. I was on that bullshit for years and it took absolutely everything from me and almost killed me dozens of times. Then 7oh came to the market and I used it to get off the bullshit tranq dope.
Now the fucked up thing is that I finally found a doctor who was willing to put me back on the oxycodone, but I'm dependent on 7. It's binding affinity is massive so while it's in your system saturating your receptors, anything weaker than about fent will do absolutely nothing. Even though the wds don't last that long I'm in so much fucking pain all the time that I haven't even been able to stop taking the 7 long enough for the oxy to start working again. They're about to ban it in my state so I have no choice now, I'm just gonna have to taper really fast and try and whiteknuckle through it for however long it takes for the oxy to finally kick in. I caved at about the 48hr mark last time, it was just too much. I pray that by 72 it'll work. I have no idea what to even do if it doesn't beyond going back to smoking fucking fent until the 7 is completely out of my system and that's just opening pandora's box for me again.
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