>>24038672i struggle as much as you do, there are still many things i clutch onto that i find hard to let go of on my own, and it's holding back my faith, making my walk with God even more difficult than it needs to be because of how hard it is for me to put my full faith in Him, despite all the times He's shown me that i can trust in Him. albeit, some prayers get answered later than sooner, especially when the situation looks most dire, but He does always consistently come through for me.
there is nothing to envy about my relationship with God, i am a hypocrite, my heart is proud, and even the ears He made for me fail to listen to Him and obey His command. i constantly fall back into sin knowingly, and still have the audacity to call upon Him as my LORD. my transgressions against Him lead me straight into rebuke, and i cry out for mercy, realizing the consequence of my independence.
i'm glad you find comfort in prayer, Jesus Christ is our good, glorious Lord and gentle Shepherd. He protects us from the enemy, and i think that if it wasn't for the attacks, we wouldn't come to call upon Him. Lord be with you during your spiritual struggles, brother.
