>>2434164I've been through all of that myself. Schizophrenia is just a mismatch between your ego and reality. Basically you're so obsessed with yourself that you start having these delusions that manifests in more extreme ways up until you can't hold the facade anymore and start having panic attacks. Theres a long way ahead of you but you can do it if you understand that your illness is a consequence of modern life and bad parenting.
So, get this through your thick head:
You're not special. You're like 90% of people. Your dreams are not true and will never manifest. You look fucking stupid like the rest of us. There is no purpose to the being that is you. You're just an animal that happened to be. No one except your immediate family gives a fuck about you and when you'll die, you'll die alone, and no one will remember you.
You won't do any coding because you have to have brains for that and you're thick and slow as fuck. The best you can achieve is work a manual labour job which is OK you imbecile. What the fuck is wrong with you? Leave your parents and only call them to say you're OK. Don't get advice from them, go in the gutters yourself. Tremble, panic you fucking manchild and slowly grow, man. Don't over-think shit just do the fucking deed. SHIFT YOUR ATTENTION FROM YOURSELF TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD.
..Then you'll wake up and start living. It's great man, join us you insignificant fuck.
