I have fantasies involving a colleague of mine and myself sharing a girl.
I get insanely hard thinking about stuffing my dick in a girl's pussy after he's blown a load into it.

Hes someone I look up to and greatly respect, we're both are great friends and we have so much in common. I love him a lot, as a friend, but I don't consider myself gay because men are not aesthetically arousing physically.

Is this gay? is it being a cuck? or is it both?