>>2664446I honestly lost all kinds of feelings over the years, it started in my early teens already when I suddenly stopped feeling any happiness no matter what great thing happened to me, with that I started to loose my personality as a whole, Im nothing but playing roles anymore, being basically a completely different person at different occassions, the only thing that reminds me of feelings is my childhood and everything was lost with the end of it, I have objectively a good life, not poor anymore, (which I was as a child, but I never minded it) socially accepted in my surroundings etc. But I dont really have any dreams or aspirations, nothing that I like and dont instantly loose interest in, I feel the world has lost its colou and everything has become greyish, I dont know when the sky looked bright and blue the last time, I dislike everyone, not having a bond with everyone, I am automatically absolutely rational and objective , not having any bit of "magic" other people seem to have, I dont want to be with anyone but I still feel alone, life feels just like waiting for death but Im not feeling suicidal, I dont even feel depressed anymore, it all just feels like nothing
