So I'm a 25 year old male and I just realized I have real self image issues. I'm mixed race and always felt like an outsider. Growing up I'd hate that I looked adopted next to my parents. I hate how ambiguous I look, like I'm not part of any culture.

(I AM HALF BLACK HALF FILIPINO BTW)

I'm jealous of monoracials, White, Black, Asian, Arabic....
>I AM CONSUMED BY HATRED FOR WHITE PEOPLE THAT HAUNTS ME ALL THE FUCKING TIME
I HAVE DISGUSTING DARK FANTASIES ABOUT SLAUGHTERING RANDOM WHITE PEOPLE
>I'M SICK OF THINKING LIKE THIS.... FEELING LIKE A MONSTER

I find myself wanting to physically assault monoracial people. I FEEL ROOTLESS AND DEAD INSIDE...... I wish people will understand this painful feel!

I feel like this is really hurting my confidence and my ability to function in life. To get what I want. A number of really attractive Latina women have shown interest in me over the past year, but I'm still taken aback by it. I can't comprehend that they find me attractive. I feel like an outsider alien freak wherever I go and very often disconnected from everyone. Just B/C I don't have a real culture/ethnicity as a basis for my identity. I feel like ethnic identity is something many take for granted, especially Whites.

THIS IS WHY I HATE WHITE PEOPLE SO MUCH
NOT HAVING TO EVEN THINK ABOUT IT
JUST BEING PART OF A GROUP AND FEELING SAFE

what do /pol/????