it feels like everyone is passing me by and no matter how hard i try i cannot catch up.
Everyone i end up knowing seems to move on to great things, when is my time? Why am i in such a bad situation an everyone else can get through life normally and make their dreams happen.
I sacrifice sleep, eating, i neglect family and friends to achieve my goals but i just can never catch up.
I'm 25 and its almost my birthday, I want to have a good time but every second i feel like crying, i cant stop myself from cringing at my own situation, reminded of how far behind I am and how little i know, meanwhile every time i slip up i can feel that they think less of me, they probably know how badly im doing and wonder how someone can be so stupid, every time they lose respect in me and every time i feel worse and worse.