>>2764734Yea, she know's but has personal reasons why she won't even consider a relationship, but she's very nice about it and helps where she can. Only problem is that she's always so busy that I start missing her and i start getting really depressed and idk how to deal with even having emotions for her, let alone being rejected. The whole situation sucks cause it's a crux of being an outsider and awkward all my life, having friends and ex's abandon and drop me in a really harsh way, and falling really hard in love for the first time.
There's many personal reasons but i don't think I could ever fall for someone else this hard, and being me, i can't have a casual relationship to try and ease the pain, i can't fall for anyone else and it fucking sucks.
All I can hope for is to be really good friends with her, which is possible but i think i've already stuffed it up as:
>The fact is I take time to build trust with people, and I don’t easily make close friendships, because one to many times someone I valued left me with nothing. Ironically, you’re closer to me than most people I’d known for the same time, since you’ve seen sides of me a lot of people haven’t just from exposure of me with [mutual friend]. But I’m not going to lie, it’s difficult sometimes because you value me so, so, so much and everything I do has this massive impact on you, and I don’t feel that way back. It’s like I’m the single thing that’s more important to you than anything else, and I don’t want to hurt you, but I can’t pretend that’s shared – and really, I think that’s what’s made it so difficult for us to really become good friends, which isn’t exactly any one’s fault.which fucking sucks since I get genuinely really happy when we hang out or talk and I don't want to push that away by making things weird
inb4
>Just stop taking to her, it'll be better in the long runtried that, felt worse
Pic related, the most shits anyone has ever given
