>>2834899No :(
I was bullied in school and never fought back because I was afraid I would get bullied more, this cowardice developed and stayed with me until now. On confrontation I am nervous as fuck, even if it's just verbal. My hands are shaking and it's hard to breathe. If in fight, I stand up to a guy, but I can't even throw a solid punch so I get beaten up everytiem. Doesn't happen that much, I always avoid confrontation.
I fucking hate it. I want to learn self defence, but I'm weak as fuck, so even if I knew some karate gimmicks and shit it wouldn't help, the opponent would shrug it off and fuck me up. Besides I can't afford any actual training, just finished college and am looking for a job. When I find it, I won't have enough money to start learning to fight because I will have to pay back debts, find a flat and pay rent and survive with the rest of my money. Considering the fact that I will earn minimum wage, which in Poland is low as fuck, I will be lucky if I am able to save enough to grab a neer with friends once a month.
What do /pol/?
