I write this with dried tears in my eyes. For 6 months she was my best and only friend in a strange city.
She finished her last exam today and is leaving for Europe without me.
I said I would get work in the city while she finishes her last year but she doesn't want to see me.
She loved me.
It hurts to think I may not see her again, but it hurts more not knowing for sure if it is the end.
It wasn't till after we parted ways that it hit home and I wanted to run back and tell her goodbye from the bottom of my heart but it was too late.
Before I sent this message I searched for instructions.
How to tie a noose? How to kill myself?
I already knew how but it was all I could do to express how I felt.
As the tears well again from eyes that have not cried in 10 years I ask you pol is this the end?