>>309819The things keeping me here: I want to see how ridiculous it actually gets, and figure why not let someone else do the dirty work, if it ever gets too bad. I really like searching out music. For example, I sometimes will skim the entire 200 pages of daily new music on
bandcamp.com looking for music. Most people think it's stupid, but there's so many good sounds to hear that it's worth it to me. It's the same with learning stuff. I think I pretty much have a vague idea of pretty much everything that exists, but want to spend some time really learning a few subjects in depth. Also, flowers are beautiful. Plus they are free. So is walking in the woods or by a lake. I'm also trying to be grateful for what I have, despite it being very meager and unimportant. And I also like writing poems. That's enough maybe. But I feel you. I think of the void all the time. I'm just trying to outlive my parents at this point. They've been through enough, and I think I can hold onto the illusion another 15 years or so.
