>>3224645Too much shit to really cover so I'll just drop the big reasons
>Dad who beat the fuck out of me and then cheated on my mom with his boss recently died of lung cancer, I ignored his pleas to patch things up between us before he died>Abusive ex gf started dating the guy who used to be my best friend and all I see are pictures of them in France and having a great time, happier together than me and her ever were.>Work a dead end job after being forced out of college because I couldn't afford to pay my tuition and am now drowning in student loans>Lump in my throat that my doctor assures me is benign yet it makes it hard to eat. Can't afford surgery to have it removed.>One of my few online friends finally worked up the courage to neck himself and now I truly feel all alone.If I could go back to my depressed 20 year old self I would assure him that it can and will get 100 times worse.
