I’m getting kicked out of school for shitty grades and I’m so stressed out over it, it’s giving me diarrhea I have no one to talk to because I’m Autistic and have no friends I literally called a suicide hotline to try to stop myself from killing myself I ran out of money spending it on school, I started school in 2013 and still haven’t gotten my degree because I piled a bunch of hard sciences on top of each other like calculus one, calculus based physics, nuclear fission, and ecosystem science and I thought I could handle it, but I couldn’t that’s why I flunk out I don’t expect you guys to say anything positive or supportive because people been hating me my entire life I was emotional abused by my step-grandfather and my biological grandfather called me a loser when I was seven and my father would call me a fat ass who doesn’t pay attention and beat me because he got ptsd from Iraq and when I was five he would beat me with a belt to the point that I couldn’t sit down the next day because my ass was so warm and throbbing from the abuse and he was working all the time since he didn’t go to college he worked three jobs (including the military) to support my family and my mom used to work all the time too my uncle is an snarky asshole who always made fun of me and picked on me my moms aunt married an asshole who would always pick on me and call me names when I was a kid I was bullied every single year in grade school up to high school and then I was bullied in the military when I enlisted for not adapting then I was given an early discharge for sucking at being a soilder I’m a 24 year old virgin I never even kissed a girl they would laugh at me and call me creepy for trying to talk to them I just scared and I don’t know what to do or who to talk to. I don’t have a job, all women I met laughed at me and said eww for trying to date them, I got kicked out of the military and I’m going to be kicked out of college, I have no friends