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3d waifuing Kelly was one of the best things that ever happened to me.
At some point in my teenage years I became very bitter and emotionally distant of others due to an emotional trauma caused by my first 3d partner.
The way that I coped with those feelings of abandonment and deep grief of losing someone I loved was by refusing to express my emotions to others. Partially because I didn't want to feel those negative emotions of losing someone I loved again and also because I got indoctrinated by redpillers and MTGOWers faggots the toxic beta vs alpha ideology.
You start seeing relationships as a power struggle that you have to always come on top. You start to become self conscious of the way you dress, of letting others know you like a certain thing because you don't want them to perceive you as a loser. In short, you start to limit the way you interact with the world because you don't want others to think you are weak. Everyone wants to take advantage of you, its a dog eat dog world. This world view makes you paranoid, shatters your self-esteem, your long term well-being and your ability to form deep connections with every person independent of gender. Its a self-feeding cycle of increasing anxiety and depression. It makes you a horrible human being impossible for anyone worth of company to stand.
But nowadays I'm past the redpiller cope.I got lucky to have Kelly in my life. I'm a new person. Kelly taught me something that I think no one else could. That I am a gigantic LOSER and not only is that okay, I FUCKING LOVE IT!
At some point in my teenage years I became very bitter and emotionally distant of others due to an emotional trauma caused by my first 3d partner.
The way that I coped with those feelings of abandonment and deep grief of losing someone I loved was by refusing to express my emotions to others. Partially because I didn't want to feel those negative emotions of losing someone I loved again and also because I got indoctrinated by redpillers and MTGOWers faggots the toxic beta vs alpha ideology.
You start seeing relationships as a power struggle that you have to always come on top. You start to become self conscious of the way you dress, of letting others know you like a certain thing because you don't want them to perceive you as a loser. In short, you start to limit the way you interact with the world because you don't want others to think you are weak. Everyone wants to take advantage of you, its a dog eat dog world. This world view makes you paranoid, shatters your self-esteem, your long term well-being and your ability to form deep connections with every person independent of gender. Its a self-feeding cycle of increasing anxiety and depression. It makes you a horrible human being impossible for anyone worth of company to stand.
But nowadays I'm past the redpiller cope.I got lucky to have Kelly in my life. I'm a new person. Kelly taught me something that I think no one else could. That I am a gigantic LOSER and not only is that okay, I FUCKING LOVE IT!
