>>3449748>How did you disprove the possibility that it's lucid dreaming?Alright the jig is up
Jeez you're so inquisitive.
Do you interrogate people for living or something?
So basically, I sometimes augment my creativity or precognition by passively drawing power from there due to my sorta active connection. I did the mistake of meditating in this life and now I'm in the process of a kundalini awakening which is trying to quite frankly sometimes "slither" from my pelvis along my spine and finally attempt to bore and BURST through to my fucking skull.
Do you know how much bullshit I've dealt with all these 5 miserable years? All the existential angst? All the freaking other-worldly bullshit? The type of shit that only fucking exists in fucking fiction?
I have a good family the loves me. I'm not poor. I'm healthy(I guess). I've never harmed anyone. So I have absolutely no excuse for anything I've done or am becoming.
Don't get me wrong, I don't regret it(much) only that it... hurts.
I don't want to check out of society entirely because I found it hard to thrive into only because I want "back", back to the origin. Maybe the fucking forests should give me some freaking peace or allow me to get through this karmic bullshittery. Away from this swirling vortex of thoughts and expressions that want to replace my own.
Fucking fuck fuck. I'm a wreck. I just want a "mother" figure to fall back to. No, not that kind of mother but a "mother". I guess nature might be able to fill that role even though she's a cruel sort sometimes maybe even more crueler than humanity but certainly knows what I'm on about.
