Thanks for listening to my shit guys.
>>3649446Even though it might be used to identify me fuck it.
I am working in IT/Chemistry.
I work at a local midsized company and due to being great at chemistry and having a passion for IT, I am sysadmin / head of IT and also work in R/D.
It's really fun and a completely unique position that I am in that I truly enjoy but some days I feel like just killing myself right then and there when I imagine having to get up every day for 50+ years and going to work.
>>3649434I think about it all the time but I don't know what is missing from my life. And I don't know what I want in my life either. I have tried relationships, adrenaline kicks, meditation, normal sports including hiking, golf etc.
Some days I feel like I can never be happy in my life no matter what I will do.
