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>be encouraged as a child to be a good person above all else
>become a shy and sensitive bookworm
>raised by single mother who was beaten by alcoholic father
>develop caring attitude towards women
>most girls say I'm "nice", "too pure", a "good guy" etc
>isolated from aggressive plebs in shitty state school
>develop admiration for chivalry, tradition, ethics and romance
>become a hermit in university and focus on study and personal academic growth
>avoid clubs, bars etc because it's too overwhelming
>avoid facebook because I have nothing to announce, document, etc
>unemployed for months after graduating
>finally find a low-prestige entry-level office job
>living and working in a majority non-white, very expensive and crowded city
>see anti-white etc news pieces every day
>see behaviour of non-whites firsthand and become disgusted
>shift towards far-right, develop appreciation for conservatism and masculine ideals
>try for dozens of other jobs but only get one interview
>beautiful girl starts working for a company in the same building
>she smiles at me and we both stare at each others' eyes for several seconds
>feel every nerve ending coming alive and my heart racing
>she is like a candle lighted in the darkness
>discover she and all her co-workers are upper class
>she probably suspects I am too and smiles at me a bunch more times and is often nearby
>too timid and broken to say anything to her
>realize I have no connections, social skills, money, stability, career prospects etc to offer her or anyone else
>she loses interest and starts dating an upper class jew working in finance
>too demoralized to apply for any more jobs
>applied to return to university but withdrew it
>currently on the verge of resigning and living in a tent until I die or my savings run out
Is anyone else here close to dropping out of society? I would appreciate a sincere discussion about this issue.
Sorry for the blog post, I'm just curious to know if anyone relates my story?
>become a shy and sensitive bookworm
>raised by single mother who was beaten by alcoholic father
>develop caring attitude towards women
>most girls say I'm "nice", "too pure", a "good guy" etc
>isolated from aggressive plebs in shitty state school
>develop admiration for chivalry, tradition, ethics and romance
>become a hermit in university and focus on study and personal academic growth
>avoid clubs, bars etc because it's too overwhelming
>avoid facebook because I have nothing to announce, document, etc
>unemployed for months after graduating
>finally find a low-prestige entry-level office job
>living and working in a majority non-white, very expensive and crowded city
>see anti-white etc news pieces every day
>see behaviour of non-whites firsthand and become disgusted
>shift towards far-right, develop appreciation for conservatism and masculine ideals
>try for dozens of other jobs but only get one interview
>beautiful girl starts working for a company in the same building
>she smiles at me and we both stare at each others' eyes for several seconds
>feel every nerve ending coming alive and my heart racing
>she is like a candle lighted in the darkness
>discover she and all her co-workers are upper class
>she probably suspects I am too and smiles at me a bunch more times and is often nearby
>too timid and broken to say anything to her
>realize I have no connections, social skills, money, stability, career prospects etc to offer her or anyone else
>she loses interest and starts dating an upper class jew working in finance
>too demoralized to apply for any more jobs
>applied to return to university but withdrew it
>currently on the verge of resigning and living in a tent until I die or my savings run out
Is anyone else here close to dropping out of society? I would appreciate a sincere discussion about this issue.
Sorry for the blog post, I'm just curious to know if anyone relates my story?
