>>3689452we were at a school trip to a national park where we stayed for a week, a girl i grew close to there came crying to me off in the woods, absolutely bawling her eyes out, saying how awful her life was and she wanted to die, she was being sexually abused by a family member and she was lost and didnt trust anybody
i had no idea what to do as a 15 year old so i ran and got an adult and sort of left her there crying and i came back with a teacher and she looked horrified and they brought her home
she ended up killing herself not too long after, i stopped sleeping completely (something liek 10-15 hours a week), started getting tons of physical illnesses (pneumonia, mono, pertussis, pretty much everything), went from perfect student to dropout, tried to kill myself but stopped
started hallucinating regularly after that point, had a strange constant hallucination that stayed with me for a long time until about 2 years ago,
when i "lost" it, i completely broke and mostly dropped out of college, been unable to function normally ever since
at the end of last year my closest cousin killed himself too, the guy who got me into video games, magic, reading fantasy books and all sorts of my favorite stuff killed himself, the type of person i wanted to be when i was younger
