I want friends, but I'm too shy to maintain relationships. Often I type long messages to my steam friends and then delete them before sending them. I'm also needy, so when I do overcome my shyness I end up smothering the person. I can actually become obsessive and drive people away. Why does it have to be this way? I've never had friends. The closest I've ever gotten was a group in HS that let me sit silently at their lunch table.