>>3916404i'm sorry for your dad, i really don't know what to say about this...
anyway i wanted to say that life is absurd and has literally no meaning
as someone said "The literal meaning of life is whatever you're doing that prevents you from killing yourself."
learn to enjoy life, do what makes you happy or feel that way, don't set goals you can't achieve
that's why sometimes you can see poor people being somehow happy and you wonder "how can they be so happy when their lives are so shit?"