>>3973454Honestly, you just have to break out of that need. Take the idea of companionship to the point of "it'd be kinda nice" rather than a need. Work on yourself, get better at something you enjoy, and make peace with the fact that you might never find the right person. Only then will you be ready for that right person.
You have to understand that when you make having someone else the biggest priority in your life, you'll never be able to truly focus on the only person who should always mater most to you: yourself. There will always be compromises, and those compromises will never benefit you more than just being by yourself.
Here's the best goal: Get to the point where you can live as comfortably with nobody else as you could with someone else pitching in half the costs. It sounds tough, but it definitely is not. You're only looking at maybe getting to 1.5x your current earnings if that. Get a nice two-bedroom apartment, or maybe even get to the point where you can afford to buy a house. This is the dream, but it's not achievable for everyone. you want that two bedroom though, because it means something: It means you can afford the kind of living that being with someone else would provide.
After that, take inventory. Look at the things you like. Look at the things you've collected on your own, put into that second room, and made your life. Now think about how you would feel if someone came in, dragged 90% of that out into the front lawn and burned it all unceremoniously. You don't even get to keep the things you think of utilitarian. You only get to keep the 10% that someone else would like. You don't need to decide what you lose, because you would never get that decision.
Just look at everything you've earned, everything you've done, and consider the vast majority of it gone. This is the new life your brain won't let you release. This is the reality of changing your world to fit someone else's.
