/bant/, I hate humanity. These people, all over the world, without exception, are filthy, degenerate, malicious animals with delusions of grandeur. And I'm not better than any of them.

I'm a 10-year Army veteran, medically-retired. I am part-owner of a successful business which requires very little of my time or energy. I have a Master's degree. I'm 44 years old. I'm married to a woman who can't stand me. We haven't had sex in years. We don't even hug or kiss. I helped raise her children, and they are grown, now.

I should leave. I should get a job, get a place of my own. I should look for ways to make the world a better place for people, to improve the human condition. Maybe there's someone else out there who's as lonely as I am, who would get along with me, if I were free and looking and out there to be found.

But, I really just don't believe any of that would really be worth the effort. Whatever I try to do, however good it might be, people will fight me over it. And if I succeed in helping anyone, they will take the help and then resent any idea that they ever needed help in the first place. And if I meet someone else and we fall in love, we will eventually grow out of that, and be unable to stand each other. The worst thing that could possibly happen is that we end up having children together, and then I'm stuck paying for them until I'm of retirement age.

I'm so capable. I have every advantage a man could want. But I don't want to hurt or punish anyone, and I don't want to help anyone either. I want to leave everyone alone, and I want everyone to leave me alone.

It's agony. I'm riding out the rest of my years, now in what should be the apex of my productivity and attractiveness, in a self-created prison of hatred and mistrust. But, fuck it, anyway.

tl;dr: if you're a human being, fuck you.