>>4063231You should really consider finding yourself a therapist friend. I've been there where everything is crumbling down and you want to do nothing but lay in bed day after day. You have to take that first step towards helping yourself, yourself. I can't do it for you and I won't lie to you and tell you that it's easy or that it will get easier in a week or even two weeks. I've been on the verge of suicide and stood on that metaphorical ledge staring into the nothingness I thought the future held for me. It was the little things that kept me going, a game I wouldn't be able to play. Perhaps a movie I wanted to see or an anime.Taking the first step is both the easiest and most difficult accomplishment in your life when you're this far down in the depths of despair. Pull yourself up, claw, scrape and make your own handholds to grab onto to.
Never let yourself forget that progress is progress no matter how small the step. Have trouble brushing your teeth every day? Start with that and only focus on that until you get yourself doing it every single day. It's easy to overwhelm yourself in moments like these during life where you see others and think that the only way to turn it all around is to wake up the next day and have it all together. That isn't how it works and it won't work like that. You have to start slow and pick up everything piece by piece. Imagine trying to grab all of the laundry on your floor rapidly, you're going to drop some socks or smaller garments of clothing. Shit now you have to bend over and grab those but OOPS! Now you've dropped more behind you.
Start with the smaller things. Grab the largest garment of clothing and lay it down as a foundation, then you take the smaller pieces of clothing, i.e socks, underwear, shirts etc... Lay those on that foundation. You now have the ability to wrap everything in and use that foundation you put down to hold it all.
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