>>4123643Fuck me how do i start this.
I hate what i find funny cause I can only laugh with jackasses
Genuinly nice people are plesant and comforting but fuck me i want to die im so bored. Every conversition its just a fucking waiting game where i have to force myself to care or i seem rude
Parents are pushing the hell out of me to do everything and i fucking hate it. I havent picked up one of their calls in a while and feel guilty but talking to them kills me
Gf is kind and nice but is not emtionionaly stable in the slightest. She will get mad over nothing then sad she fliped at me and i have to deal with both.
Going to see a therapist but i honestly dont think it will help
Mother got diagnosed with cancer but how little i care about it scares me.
I think im fucking broken but i real dont care about myself all that much.
Pain in small doses is nice to keep myself... i dont know anchored is a word i guess.
I have every opertunity handed to me and i dont bother to take it and i hate myself. If i do take it i genuinly hate it and want to die
I cant remember the last time i looked forward to tomorrow Fuck
