>>4125259She sort of fell into my lap, and in Highschool I was a timid sports star with a couple friends. I talked to her, and it was a nervous first month where she wouldn't talk to me much because it was her first date as well. She could sometimes be mean-spirited, but I had a way with words to have her understand my thoughts and we grew close. We had sex all the time, both basically addicts it seemed. Then we grew apart when I lost my drive, I smoked with her brother, she lived in a trailer park but hated the idea that she lived in one. Now she won't speak to me anymore, and I want to message her and make her feel really bad. Not to get her back, for we had a couple swings after we broke up, but to make things equal. She deserves to hear my unfiltered self tell her all the shit she did, and that she was controlling. But I have a martyr mentality and am the nicest persons who tries to make others feel good about themselves. After we broke up, I did drugs heavily, and went slightly stir crazy. Now I am just trying to find my independence. I have made too many mistakes
