>>4336903She just turned 18 (only a year younger than me) and is in high school. I'm successful too but in a different way. I got good grades and chose to pursue a degree in a very lucrative field that I enjoy at the best college I could get into for it. The problem is that I'm depressed as hell here. I have a fraction of the friends I used to have and feel like shit all the time, it's crushed my self-confidence and ruined me mentally. I'm recovering but it's a rude awakening. My sister on the other hand is a little smarter than me but is going to go to a cozy liberal arts college instead where she will probably meet some great people and live happily ever after with her bf while I haven't even so much as held hands with a girl yet.
I don't feel competitive or envious of my sister, I'm really happy for her and she deserves the best after all we've been through but I just wish I made the choices she made regarding relationships and colleges. I'm autistic when it comes to relationships and knowing myself and she's autistic when it comes to acting like an adult (as adult as you can get at 18/19) so we both drew a different short-straw. I'm playing for the long game and she's playing for the short game in a sense.
It's complicated, I just wish I was more like her in some ways, she's more mature than me in some aspects.
