>>445224I can't answer that for you, anon. I'm just some asshole and all I can do is attempt to use the little empathy I have left and provide you with a little distraction on the internet by shitposting, and even that is evidently pretty hit-or-miss.
But that fetish you have never goes away. Every time you're aroused, every time you fap, every time you see something cute and feminine, it's there. And you're left feeling so far away from it and hate who you are. If you wait until after puberty for the transition you lose your chance at doing it well forever. So the regrets can go in both directions.
I know you're suffering more than I am, and I know things aren't easy for you. But hold on until after you recover from this latest surgery and your pain levels go down, and see if things don't get better for you.
