>bump into this gay kid I met once going into my friend's dorm
>see he's with another guy
>for some reason this makes me upset
>he says hi and I say hi back
>he does that thing where he says he can't really remember my name but he gets it
>I stutter a bunch and can't stop touching my hair
>forget how to move my body
>"h-heh yeah that's my name"
>feel my face turning fucking red
>interaction ends and he leaves
>can't stop thinking about his hair, face, and body
>feel incredibly depressed
>realize I will never have a relationship with someone like him because I refuse to out myself
>after hanging out with friend I walk back to my dorm buy some cigarettes and try to take my mind off of it, I don't even smoke
I'm so fucking confused, I hate this. It's fucking 3am I should be asleep, I can't stop my mind from racing. I feel like a liar, like I'm lying to fucking everyone. What if I out myself and I'm not even gay. I'm so scared I'm so tired of living like this, why am I even making this retarded thread, enjoy my blog I guess.