>>4472882I've been questioning my sexuality for probably around 5 years actually, but just recently it's started to come to a head. It started in high school when this extremely attractive Italian foreign exchange student (not bullshitting) started drawing hearts and stuff in my text book and I couldn't tell if he was flirting with me or just messing around. I found it weird that I kind of liked him but nothing ever came of it because I never considered that I was really gay.
Anyway, after that I started thinking about it more and more and started having thoughts about this other gay kid at my school. Then I got to college and came back home over winter break and was at a party and got a little drunk and high and ended up extremely attracted to this dude there. Like I had to leave the room because I couldn't stop thinking about him and I knew he was straight so it wouldn't work. Then I realized I'd been having thoughts like this for a long and remembered all the times I felt like I was gay but really suppressed it. The problem is that I've also had really hard crushes on girls but can never picture actually loving them in a sexual way, all of my fantasies and stuff are about dudes mainly.
