why can't i stop thinking about this faggot? im 38 and an oldfag. i was around when "an hero" first became a thing and i lived through that rash of myspace suicides (oldfags know what im talkin about.)

when i was an edgy kid i thought that shit was funny. when i first saw the shuaiby videos i didnt even really care. i was just like "oh, r9k? makes sense." but soon after, weird shit started happening to me.

i'll be randomly doing whatever and suddenly forget where i am like "how did i get here? what was i doing?" and earlier today i was at work just going about my day and suddenly started crying like a bitch and then my sides went into orbit and then crying again. had to hide so my coworkers wouldnt see.

is it possible to get PTSD from an internet video? can that happen? and why would it happen over this stupid durka from r9k who i dont even give a shit sbout?

im not soft. i can eat a hotpocket while watching mexi cartel chainsaw vids and bestgore shit like the dagestan massacre, etc. and not only that but ive actually seen people get shot irl and ive seen them die

so why is this one sticking with me so much? is it that playful, nonchalant wave at the camera? "peace out faggots. i'm OUT of this shitshow lol" is it the 56% of his face getting stuck to the ceiling? i dont get it. whats wrong with me? ive got this weird existential dread feel like nothing is ever gonna be normal again. does anybody know that feel?

inb4 /pol/ isnt your blog
inb4 tits or gtfo
inb4 lmfao emo faggot
inb4 soy
etc etc etc