Itt: confess your worst sin

I sexually assaulted a girl when I was 16

>be me
>go to party
>meet girl who's drunk, she borrows my phone to call someone
>talk to her
>go upstairs
>make out
>cops show up just as im asking for a bj
>clear it out of the house
>offer to take her to her friends house
>she accepts and gets in the car
>friends house has gate, don't know the code
>leave car at gate, walk with her
>stop in between two chest high shrubs
>start fingering her, she likes it
>guide her to her knees, whip my dick out
>she sucks it for like 10 seconds
>spits it out, slumps over
>help her up and take her to her friend's house
>tell friends what happened, they congratulate me
>show me a picture they took of us talking on couch, she looks like she's crying (she was, but not as hysterically as the picture would make you think) next to me, i have my arm around her and am smiling
>"lol bro you look like a rapist"
>meme starts up in school that I raped a girl
>at first I laugh about it and play along
>eventually the meme becomes a reality, and I people thought I raped a girl
>years go by, every once in a while people ask me "hey bro were you that guy that raped that girl?"
>I always deny it, and say it was a joke that got out of hand

Im starting to believe that I actually did rape a girl. I still think about today, even though it was over 4 years ago. The guilt sometimes overpowers me, and I have mini anxiety attacks. Whether or not I did it, I confess the sin to you /bant/.