>>4490060I don't think my problem falls in line with yours, but ever since 5th grade I've been depressed. I don't know why it started then, I did have a complete bitch of a teacher.
Every day of my life I have either wished I would die, or contemplated suicide. I won't kill myself, as I have many that rely on me - but I want to. I have trouble with relations in general, with women especially. I've never been close to someone, I've always been distant from family and family has always been distant from me.
Every girl I try to date tends to ignore me for no reason after a couple weeks of talking. Family members throw big parties for others and get everyone lots of gifts. I don't get anything, my birthday I spent alone in my house.
I started my own business, make good money, and so forth. When I go to family gatherings, I'm just ignored and sit and watch TV with grandpa. Yet, my cousins all ask my half-brother(Not their blood) all kinds of things about his life.
It used to be something that bothered me all the time, but anymore I've grown used to it. It's like I'm invisible, like I'm nothing. Yet, I do all kinds of things for my family. My grandparents are the only ones that really do anything for me.
My dad died when I was 18, my mom was addicted to(and still is) painkillers when I was growing up and was drugged up all the time. She said her problems were Fibromyalgia, which she later opened up to me that it was a lie and she was just drugged up.
I'm 26 now, make $60,000 a year, was a veteran, do all kinds of cool stuff, have lots of hobbies. Yet I'm treated like I'm invisible, or just weird.
Psychiatrists have all told me I seem pretty normal, I've seen three. If that was the case, why am I treated this way? Why am I invisible?
