I've cut myself with every kind of knife, lit matches and put them out on my arms, scratched myself until the pink scars stayed for months after, put my finger and thumb on the metal of a charger and stuck it in the wall socket, dehydrated, starved, and choked myself to the point of fainting and made my own showers so hot that my skin still radiated steam minutes after but I gotta give myself a three minute pep talk and then like 10 deep breaths to rip off a band-aid ya'll dig?