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>be me
>live with mother and grandmother
>they constantly bicker and provoke each other
>we're from a poor family
>today I get a call from my dad that my other grandmother is on her death bed after being sick for a while
>go to hospital
>see her
>she's non responsive and all bloated due to kidney failure
>stay there for like 2 hours. It was sad but peaceful, plus my dad is one of the few stable people in my life
>go home at like 2 am
>stop at a gas station
>my car battery dies
>call home to ask my mom to give me a jump
>I hear them screaming at each other in the back ground
>Sitting in a cold car although my mom does eventually come up to give me a jump
>Get home
>My grandmother (the one who isn't sick) is sitting on the floor drunk and screaming
>I have to convince her to let me help her up after she's being drunk and argumentative
>My mother and grandmother keep arguing over long standing resentments they have against each other
>I try to keep them calm
>when they calm down they start telling me how horrible the other one is trying to get me to take their respective sides
>don't seem to have any concern that I just saw my other grandmother on her deathbed and my father in a state of grief like I've never seen before
What do I have to live for? I'm not sure I can continue to stay strong.
>live with mother and grandmother
>they constantly bicker and provoke each other
>we're from a poor family
>today I get a call from my dad that my other grandmother is on her death bed after being sick for a while
>go to hospital
>see her
>she's non responsive and all bloated due to kidney failure
>stay there for like 2 hours. It was sad but peaceful, plus my dad is one of the few stable people in my life
>go home at like 2 am
>stop at a gas station
>my car battery dies
>call home to ask my mom to give me a jump
>I hear them screaming at each other in the back ground
>Sitting in a cold car although my mom does eventually come up to give me a jump
>Get home
>My grandmother (the one who isn't sick) is sitting on the floor drunk and screaming
>I have to convince her to let me help her up after she's being drunk and argumentative
>My mother and grandmother keep arguing over long standing resentments they have against each other
>I try to keep them calm
>when they calm down they start telling me how horrible the other one is trying to get me to take their respective sides
>don't seem to have any concern that I just saw my other grandmother on her deathbed and my father in a state of grief like I've never seen before
What do I have to live for? I'm not sure I can continue to stay strong.
