There's this girl and she's head over heels for me, buys me things all the times, invites me out all the time. She's basically putting all the work in to the relationship even though I've said I don't want a girlfriend. She said that's okay and I can have sex with her whenever I want to. I find her physically attractive but not at the same time. We got very drunk together and she asked me why if I find her attractive, I'm not doing anything? I said because I like bonobos more. She didn't understand it at all and now she's upset at me.

I'm fairly sure I'm fundamentally broken as a human being. I can't watch porn because it doesn't do much for me anyway and I exclusively use animal documentaries or photographs. I honestly just don't find her or women in general sexually desirable. I find them cute to look at and want to do cute things to them and with them, but not sexual. I don't know what to do. What have I done to myself?