>be me
>23 year-old college dropping out NEET who literally have never ever worked at all
>still a fucking kissless virgin (i've managed to get a blow job twice by my female classmate when i was a high school student though)
>have never talked with white girls at all, like 0 seconds in my whole life and have literally zero percent chance for me to fuck with them forever
>the only fun i can get at this point on a dairy basis is from fapping to porn (huge-assed thicc woman is my favorite) and affection given to me by our 3 house cats
>4chan, especially /pol/, is the only place where i can actually connect with others

it looks like it's just over here
the only cure left to me is apparently just committing suicide here at this point
every night when in bed before falling to asleep i just wish that when i woke up i was just a 12 year-old elementary school kid having adventure with my friends every day and every morning i wake up in fucking indescribable despair and depression

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=57iOgKv2xRM

tell me your stories, anons

(this thread is politically related
my ban just expired like 10 minutes ago and as i'm saying this is the only place i can connect with others so please don't deprive me of the right to interact with people please)