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> Be me
> Three and a half years ago
> Used to have a thing for this girl, sliiightly chubby, blonde, bluest eyes, sweet girl 6/10 body 8/10 personality
> I ask her to come out and have a drink, maybe talk a little, over Telegram
> She accepts and we hit it off, start dating having fun
> She starts college, some international study
> FF a couple months, so about 2 years ago from today
> Her dream has always been to help people, she wants to help between cultures
> As someone from a different ethnicity, this was dope as fuck to me
> She then says she wants to go abroad too, which I kinda wanna do as well
> She says her study has about one year in which she can do internships in country and abroad
> My insecurities drive me to talk with her, trying to get her to give up on going abroad, and that we'll go together
> Realise that I am manipulating this girl into giving up her dream
> Can't live with this, but at the time it seemed what I had to do to save my relationship
> FF to a couple months back
> GF brings internship up again, since it's almost time for her
> Ask what she's gonna do
> She says she'll stay close, doesn't want to be far away from me
> Feel terrible inside, I love this girl, and I am standing in her path to success
> Tell her she shouldn't be staying back for me, that we'll get through it if she goes
> She says she wants to stay not for me, but for herself, that she can't bear going away
> I am destroyed at this point, I don't know what to do but feel like the biggest asshole
> She says it's okay and that she loves me and would give anything up just to be with me and make me happy
Cont
> Three and a half years ago
> Used to have a thing for this girl, sliiightly chubby, blonde, bluest eyes, sweet girl 6/10 body 8/10 personality
> I ask her to come out and have a drink, maybe talk a little, over Telegram
> She accepts and we hit it off, start dating having fun
> She starts college, some international study
> FF a couple months, so about 2 years ago from today
> Her dream has always been to help people, she wants to help between cultures
> As someone from a different ethnicity, this was dope as fuck to me
> She then says she wants to go abroad too, which I kinda wanna do as well
> She says her study has about one year in which she can do internships in country and abroad
> My insecurities drive me to talk with her, trying to get her to give up on going abroad, and that we'll go together
> Realise that I am manipulating this girl into giving up her dream
> Can't live with this, but at the time it seemed what I had to do to save my relationship
> FF to a couple months back
> GF brings internship up again, since it's almost time for her
> Ask what she's gonna do
> She says she'll stay close, doesn't want to be far away from me
> Feel terrible inside, I love this girl, and I am standing in her path to success
> Tell her she shouldn't be staying back for me, that we'll get through it if she goes
> She says she wants to stay not for me, but for herself, that she can't bear going away
> I am destroyed at this point, I don't know what to do but feel like the biggest asshole
> She says it's okay and that she loves me and would give anything up just to be with me and make me happy
Cont
