Why the fuck can't I escape my depression and suicidal thoughts. It's been haunting me for almost 2 years, and the longest period I've escaped these thoughts was only a couple of weeks.
My suicidal thoughts have different reasons after I resolve my problems. At first it was "Stop wasting everyone's time your a dissapoinmeny and failure", then "You like cross dressing, that isn't right fag end yourself", to "Modern life is fucking pointless and not free, just give up". It almost seems like in destined to blow my brains out.