I've been contemplating becoming an hero for a long time but i got help meds therapy and blablabla

But wait, I'm sure you alll know that feels go high and low, well they were pretty low today and this happened in my NEET brain

>Feeling down wanna die
>nothingnew
>Whats the one thing that held me back from an hero in the past ?
>parents bc I lost ppl to suicide and its shit
>autismobrain murder engaged
>"Well, we dont want parents feeling bad if we die, what if they die first?"
>"Sure they're still to young to die of age so what if... what if you killed them THEN kys?"
>Feeling one third genius, one third homocidal one third terrefied"

This was worse than a brainfart this was chaos

I'm not gonna follow through but my brain has just suggested murdering my parents Wat do
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