>be me
>military brat
>get used to saying goodbye to friends
>get used to never seeing them
>never had a childhood friend
>suicidal thoughts at 7
>NEET and I just fucking hate life
>skype friends are good but I’m just a background person
>meet best friend in Okinawa
>we stay friends for over four years
>he is a fucking brother to me
>get orders to move
>tell him to go on skype regularly
“I don’t want to lose such a god friend as you”
‘Yeah, I wouldn’t either’
>we stay in contact
>we move to Poland
>Move to grandparents’ apartment
>family pet falls 3 stories and dies slowly
>Dad does all sorts of shit, have to take care grieving family meanwhile
>at his funeral, see my dad cry for first time
>cry
>depression.help
>Still the crying shoulder of the family, so is Dad
>Christmas Eve, delicious dinner
>Memelord cousins coming soon
>soothesthepain.gif
>Hear thud
>boy yelling for help
>man hardly breathing on floor
>Dad does cpr
>I stay with kid, comfort him
>his father died
>I’m on the fucking edge
>foam over it on skype and Tumblr
>a skype friend makes a joke about dead dad
I lose it, and after a short debate, leave
>they laugh
>haven’t heard from friend in awhile
>call
>tell him everything
>Call maybe week later
>he can deadlift twice his weight, has an even bigger knife collection than before
>plans on being pastry chef
Amazing.jpeg
>silence over month and half, tried YouTube, email, nothing
>friends still laugh at dead dad when brought up, Mom still leaves bowls of water and food for dog.
>mom and I are having a straining relationship
>tell friends to love themselves, tell me to stfu
Mfw I just want to have my friend back
Mfw the last time I smiled was at memes