I'm legitimately developing schizophrenia. I consciously focus on having a certain set of characters, then something happens, or I have a shot of alcohol, which alters the chemicals in my brain a bit, and I become a totally different human being.

I am currently drunk and trying to focus on becoming the person I was before I started to drink. The inability to do so is freaking me the fuck out. Thoughts? Is this where it starts?

I've made some discoveries along my journey which help me. Although they can't be utilized willynilly