Dont know if this is the place to do it dont care i needto fucking rant

Im so fucking pissed and dissapointed at myself on a such constant level i literaly dreamed i was at work just fucking up all day wich is wat i do anyway i just fucking know my superviser is waiting for performance reviews to shove me out the fucking door cause im such a constant fuck up i accually had a fellow employe tell me "sticking up for you to stay working here is becoming more difficult" do you know how that feels people are going to start leaving me cause im a stupid fuck who has lost 2 other jobs the past three fucking years cause im just a forgetfull stupid slow cunt of a human i literally want to anhero not cause im drepressed but because i fucking cant stand myself i stay the same stupid cunt no matter wat attempts i make to change myself for the better i always make the same mistakes on accident but it is now accually to the fucking point where people think im doing it on purpose i do them that fucking often and i dont mean to it just hapens no matter how hard i try to remeber i just cant do it even the simple shit like not fucking forgeting to paint my work or fucking ship the right parts i just keep fucking up cause im so fucking stupid i legit dont even think im worth the effort anymore proly just gonna off myself when i get fired for being literaly useless fuck